Everyone has ‘em, my friend.
Nothing is as black and white as it may seem to be.
The softest of soft sops – and the “most caring” people externally in reality may just be completely opposite in reality, and usually ARE.
The toughest SOBS and the crankiest, most orneriest ones – remember a certain Clint – remember a certain person on THIS SITE, hehe – usually also have a side to them you never see, and they do their best to see to it that you never see either.
Yet… I wouldn’t be lying to say something brought a tear to my eye this morning and made me SO happy that … I don’t know, it just made me feel “all will be well very soon!”
Not that it isn’t already.
But I don’t know, with all going on in the world, everything else, the lunacy etc – its just a “feeling” I got.
And it’s prosaic and apt I write this emotion laden post – or email, what have you – on the 8th August.
Sometimes, the littlest of things!
Last evening, I had a thought on my little girl – an impulse, a brief fleeting THOUGHT, thats all.
I followed up on it – or started, then stopped.
“Why do that”, my second “Doubting” voice said.
I almost caved into it.
Yet something made me follow through on what I planned on doing, and I did it.
And this morning, hearing a voice saying “Papa, Papa, I have online classes again!!” (apparently some monkeypox bullshit this time – all I could think of was “well, at least the little monkeys wont get it, hehe”) …
… even if you can’t hug that cute cuddly person saying it, even if you cannot “touch her in person” and say I love you – just hearing that voice?
It made me so weak – and so happy.
Weak, and happy.
Our innermost desires, no matter how “deep and dark” they are, and we all have ‘em do that don’t they?
And I don’t know, as I was sitting there doing my usual routine, I was thinking of my little girl as a baby, and this thought came to mind as it always has.
Amongst many others.
“No matter what, I know my little baby girl (as I’ll always remember her) HAS my back”.
Thats all that matters!
Dr Maltz wrote about “it doesn’t matter if no-one else is cheering for you in the bleachers but YOU are – that is what matters”.
Conversely and he is right in saying this as well – – if EVERYONE is supporting you, but YOU are not – and I don’t mean superficial belief either, then nary a positive occurrence occurs.
Believe or not, up to you – but its true.
Extend the “you” to a “little you along with you”, and you get the picture in terms of how I feel.
I thought I’d tell my “wife” about it, I thought I’d tell others about it, but of course, I know the reaction.
I’ll tell my daughter in terminology she understands sometime today.
Quietly. Hehe. The walls have ears, eh.
But I figured I’d share THIS with you guys, it just made me so emotional.
Yes, this gruff, cranky bastard has two sides to him as well – as we all do. Hehe.
Peeling away the layers of that onion will make you literally cry though, but I figured I’d peel them a bit today myself and give y’all a break on it.
Back to biz.
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And that, my friends is THAT.
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